To eat or not to eat

Rory has been eating! Not much, but eating nonetheless. Mac n' cheese for the last 3 days. Christine suggested trying some cream soup. I had tried vegetable and tomato, which she didn't like. Cream of chicken made with whole milk....she ate it!!! I don't know how much because I didn't measure, but she had a good ten baby spoon fulls before starting to spit!!!
It's so odd that she cycles like this. And why does she always seem to improve once appointments are made?? It drives me crazy, because of the conflicting emotions...I'm HAPPY she is eating, but AFRAID she will stop again after our evaluation.....or even before then and it's one less thing I can feed her. I've been here before, fully expecting that we've turned a corner only for her to stop again.
The reality is that just because she is eating noodles and soup this week doesn't really change anything. She still can't eat small pieces of fruits or vegetables or meat or bread or yogurt, or a quantity more than a tablespoon or two before quitting, and the tongue thrust thing is just too hard to ignore. But If I make a list of what she eats, it really doesn't look bad.

What she will eat:
Cheerios
Cheddar/Mozzarella cheese cubes
Gerber Lil' Crunchies
Cottage Cheese
Cream cheese
Mac n' cheese
Mashed potatoes
Chicken Soups

I mean, it looks like she's just picky.....but when you look at quantity and how selective she is, she's not eating enough....UGH...the whole situation is going to put me in the nuthouse. Am I just crazy?? I hate feeling crazy when my kid eats!!!! Then she has a meal where she doesn't eat, and I'm like, "okay, I'm not crazy".......how SAD is that???? Well, I'm HAPPY today, that's what I know for sure....because I cracked a can of soup that she liked, without having to make it homemade.....I'm starting not to care too much about sodium and sugar and processed stuff....I just want her to eat...it's not like she's eating a whole can of soup anyway, or pounding back twinkies....YAY for canned, high sodium, cream of chicken crap!!!!
Well, naptime cometh.....not feeling very well today....but HAPPY!!!! :)
Boy, I think I am crazy. LMAO!